Hospitalized

I had a dream

That he had been hospitalized 

On a white bed 

Car crash? 

I couldn't remember

But I hold his hands tighly 

and cried a lots till sleep 

He only smiled and said "Nothing."

Still feel worried till now

Hope he will be fine... Huh

The Rooms and Sex Dolls

It was from 4 to 6 PM

I was stucked in a dark room

On wedding night 

A goblin gave me a red gems necklace whick if I broke a sapphire on it, it will give me and my husband many powers

Then the scene changed

I moved to an flat or placed that I could barely see anything

But there are many people lay on the floor

Already to attack me 

Rooms merged rooms

Connected one by one

Mostly were men

I couldn't do anything with my super power, but I throw them a sex toy instead

To distract them and moved among the rooms

It works.

I guess people prefer to dived in lust rather than get tired from fighting. 

Like the pandemic

People stuck in their houses 

In the tight and humid rooms

With no lights 

And I couldn't find any doors to get out

When the darkness around. 

My fucking beloved cousin

I have a younger one year cousin :) Actually, I have two cousins but I am closer to the first child. 

I had two dreams about him 
Today (afternoon nap on August 7th) and one or two days before. 

In the first dream, I had a trip to Nha Trang, my cousin and Thanh texted me to join their graduation day. Then a guy tried to rape me in a room with my tarot deck on my hand, a blue one named prisma ma or sth. 

Then a guy appeared to please my sexual desire. However, he was getting fat with glasses on his face. The second time, I reject to have sex but he still kept going. Oh, just to mention that this guy appeared when I stayed in a hotel and waiting for a flight back to Ho Chi Minh city. That guy appeared from a weird 3D unreal dimension behind the door. That room was pink with a bed and cotton blanket. 

I stood in front of the door, said I don't want to see him anymore. This time he got fatter. Sincerely, I felt disgusted. I forbid him to step in but the fear was rising. 
He tried to rape me and entered the room. I tried to lock the door but he was stronger than me. 
I sneaked under his arms into his dimension. Suddenly, I saw my cousin - Quang and Thanh. I yelled out for help:

- Quang, help me. Help! I need help! 

He successfully pulled me out of him. That dirty guy. 

I was worried about my tarot deck inside, 

and how about my uncle who already booked the ticket for me because I teleported to HCM. 

Well, that dirty guy them my suitcase in a field. The graduation occurred in a sport field, what's weird. 

Ok, how about my tarot? 

Yelling ain't work

Threatening ain't work

Soothing him with sweet words worked better until his dad came to drag him away. 

Then what happens made me really sad. Not disappointed but sad for I know that he doesn't love me as love him. 

My cousin asked me to pay for saving me. A great huge of money. So I was trying to make the deal cheaper. 

I mean I don't blame him for asking for money for he already saved me at that moment instead of running away or ignoring me. I am thankful for that. So it makes sense. 

I'm willing to pay for his good deeds. 

And that moment, I know I do trust his good side, a person I put trust in before I could realize by myself.

I remember that I decided to be back in that room and waited for a flight instead of staying there. 

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Then 2nd dream,

We were sleeping together
and he hugged me back
as we were little child

I was happy a lot

then I watched the movie in a theater
but I suddenly got stomachache and diarrhea

Thus I went to the restroom but when I got back, he disappeared with my stuff, my two enormous and precious swords. They are pink or yellow. Geezzz but he was floating with them above the ocean waves. 

Then I tried to take them back, I begged him but he ran away :) 

When I woke up, we had a conversation:

- I did had a bad habit of pickpocket but I quit them a long time ago. 

Then my sister asked to force him to confess what he took from me sth:

- Your love for me, he said

I can't deny and damn it's true. 

I love him as I love my little sisters :) I know he may use me sometimes but I still love to see him happy. 

 Dreams make me feel like I'm traveling to many stories, many worlds, and live many lives. 

Kiss and Drink

 It's not actually a nightmare, but It was because I had a dream about a person I should not. 

It's weird, absolutely hilarious. 

I was a vice-captain, in a group who was ready to fight somewhat battel

I was showing the group how to fight by the earth element, yellow square stone with a fist directly bunch into women and men face, in different face's areas. Two areas. 

The captain was an elementary friend, that he was always poked me. He was taller than me and we were one deskmate in fifth grade. 

I never felt a crush for him, not even once, but I had a dream about him three times in my life. What's weird. 

The first time was when I was in 10th grade, had a dream that he held my hand. Not sure it was modern time or a little bit ancient, under the sun. As we were lovers. 

I mocked myself for that dream.

The second dream was last month, or many in June or May 2021, also before the Chinese final exam because I also had a scene about how easy the Japanese exam of my friend is going to be.

And we were going to meet a friend. She was my best friend in elementary school, and she had a crush on him for eleven years. 

I did feel guilty for had dreams about the man she likes. 

We were wain in a grey stone garage, gloomy and dark. 

Hmm, we ate paste together and waited for her. It was for her birthday to see her from the elevator. There was a teddy bear, and he was in a coat. 

And THE DREAM which I just had last night (August 2nd of August 1st day) 

So he was tall, wore weird clothes, I said, "Did u wear your mother's clothes."

He still irritated and poke me, asked me to focus. 

Then weirdly, after the practical and guiding about fighting

He seemed sad

I remembered that he had a girlfriend. 

Then he kept looking at a wedding store in which the bride dressing,

White, and lily, and cheerful faces, made him more upset. 

I felt sorry for him, so I dragged him into that store. 

I just wanted to help him face that sadness and his fear. Well, I guess he on battle with his girlfriend or they already broke up. 

I don't remember. But I gave him a few things, gave him a big smile. Then we drank milk tea and we left the store. I was in front a land that similar to my secondary school. 

Suddenly he stopped and turned me back. 

Then he gave me the kiss. 

I was shocked before his reaction, his act and could not understand why. 

But I knew that I didn't reject him. 

Instead, I enjoyed the kiss, and his tongue although I thought I would feel disgusted. 

In the dream, I hoped that moment could last longer... but we didn't open to each other or admitted anything. 

It was sweet and happy... and we joined a ball later. As we dressed black costumes. 

I saw Sakura and Li... and mom woke me up. 

It's weird, isn't it? Why it is him?

Escape

 Run
I was in a house, from the old times (about the middle ages) I guess
I was trying to always to escape a house, by stealing and swallowing forbidden pills, and mechanical things was waiting to attack me. 

I was scared, and one day, I decided to run away from that wooden house

Flee my feet to touch the crunchy and soft grounded of Mother Earth 

I was running but flying on my feet, glad to be back in nature

I was

full of joy and excitement

to smell the forest

and order of brownie Earth

However, a small curing room in the middle of the forest appeared

I was in thurst, and it was raining. 

So I stepped in, to warm myself

People were nice, the doctors in white blouse greeting me with their luminous smile

A doctor winked at me, lend me his number. I guess it was a romantic hint? 

Not really remember this incident happened before or after the people in that room asked me to inject the vaccine 

I was so mad at them

then

I yelled back at them that how miraculous of brown rice and fasting and macrobiotics was, and asked them to respect my lifestyle, but they ended up the conversation by giving me a jerky smile. 

Oh, right, then the doctor gave me his number, a good-looking one, then 

I felt better and agreed to compromise with them

I will inject the vaccine, then fasting for 15 days

they better not fucking said anything to me anymore


Another scene

when I left that room, I was starved
I guessed I poked some candies or snacks on the table, but the nurse or caregiver saw it
I said sorry and put them back, then left

The rain was cold, I was dipped in sadness

What's a gloomy and wet forest, instead of a sunny and exciting mood in the last scene 

Dream of July 24th, 2021

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Updated on August 1st, 2021

At the end of July, my mom forced me to inject the vaccine

with harsh words, 
"If you want to live in this Earth and humanity, you must."

She drove me nuts, also dad 

He even gave me a call, do no ask for agreement or not but I had to 

He already arranged a vaccine injection for me and my sis

Before dad gave me a call, I already shut my door, registered for a vaccine injection day on August 1st online by the app, but it aint's work. 

Coincidently, the vaccine that dad arranged for me also on August 1st, which scared me a little bit. 

The Wave

 Another nightmare

I was a chasing and the most terrible one in recent weeks

That my ex, who I hated the most, begging me to back in a relationship with him. 

After witnessing me hardly rejected him, his cues changed. 

No matter how hard I tried to push him away, he still dragged my legs, and stuck in the room, in my house. In the room that we usually made love. 

I tried to run away, yelled at him, even called his dad. He did obey me for a while, but flipped his word quickly. 

Always lies and soothing words, 

I tried to call his dad to get him away, 'cause to be honest

I felt disgusting about him, everything about him. 

The Abandoned One

I had a lovely dream. 

It was light, soft, and seemed to be romantic, but sadly ended, so I considered it a nightmare. 

A nightmare about a cold-hearted man. 

I had a dream

about a girl, a man, and a horse

I saw them in ancient traditional clothes

The beautiful horse was given to the girl

And... it has the skin of straw and light.


She was good at riding horses and was an archer. However, she was bought by him, the great Lord.

He was always in purple clothes with his long black hair.

I can feel that he never stop looking at her, gives her so many things and fall in love with her.

but the girl did not think the same way, she thought her love was a one-sided love.

A child asked for the horse, and she gave it away

Later then, she regretted it and took it back. She was hurtful that she loved him too much that she even could not give the horse away.

The rain falling hard at night

She walked into his room, wet, and tired

The man of her life sat on the lounge, heartlessly looked at her.

She thought, "Is he always that cold?"

The girl opened her mouth, then asked,

"Can I leave you?"

she paused,

He looked at her, opened his eyes. 

The last scene was she was in his arms, felt her love back or just a moment of pity from him. 

She couldn't know. 

June 19th, 2021